My heart is only beating for you

Lately ive been pretty blah,
They put me on celexa which had seemed to set me back
So I started cutting again, they then took me off celexa-as of today-
I am now being put on lithium :(
They said I am ' bipolar 2 '
Sad face

I really miss Leif lately
Like it's hard to describe
My heart hurts
It's hard to fall asleep
I know he's ' the one' but it's so hard
Not being able to see the love of my life
Everyday, it's hard.

I want to move out of my house so bad
I can't really stand it anymore


I just wish everything was different
I haven't had friends since I went to court for being raped
I feel so alone all the time
With no one to talk to
My own age...
No motivation
For
Anything
...