Tonight tonight

A silver secret confronts her fears
A red line confirms her life
A constant burn brings her pain
Shes alive

A past that's trapped in her future
And constant in her present
She wants to move forward
She wants to move up
But the way she is headed is down

Suffocating in a life that shouldnt be
She worries
For herself
For her friend
For her love
If she can't save herself
How can she save them

Worthless
Meaningless
And anxious
Are her feelings when she's alone

Constantly drugged she doesnt know who she is
Who she should be
Or what she is like
She knows what it's like to feel pain
To feel alive

She feels dirty
Filthy
Disgusting
Covered in a touch that shouldn't be
Crumbling under pressure
Running at a loss for words
She's Alive

Mixed in all the yelling
Thrown into the screaming
The subject of hate
She longs for a relief
Found in her silver secret
That is no longer here
She doesn't feel alive

To feel it drip
To feel it release
To relieve the pressure
To set her free
To make her feel alive