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She makes it seem easy

She makes it seem easy

Smiling, laughing and getting along

Helping people when they need it

Even if they don’t want it

She makes it seem easy

Doing the little things

Helping with the big things

Even when it isn’t wanted

She makes it seem easy

To hide the emotion

To hide the fear

The feeling in the pit of her stomach

She makes it seem easy

To get back up

To stand her ground

She makes it seem easy

To please a crowd

She makes it seem easy

Even though it hits her so hard

She makes it seem easy

Even though life doesn’t always hand her the right cards

 Only then will they understand

One day I hope they'll see

 this is just a sad part of me

their hearts I do not mean to break

I do it for my own souls sake

I want to smile and often do

except for when I think of you

Your coldness chills me still

its takes away my sense of will

I sit in crowds, yet feel alone

Waiting for the rest of me to come home

My heart and mind feel scattered

picking up all the pieces thar shattered

I ache, I hurt, I feel

the pain is so surreal

I wish you could see

how tortured you have made me

I want to start a new life

Have children and be a wife

But its hard to have a clear view

when i live in fear of you

I dont see an end to my plight

And i am losing the will to fight

I see your face, hear your laugh

It takes my breath, its makes me gasp

You are long gone

i know where you thrive

it seems so wrong

that i struggle to be alive

Trapped in the mind

Unsaid thoughts

Unheard screams

Unpredictable actions

Why did I do this

Take it back

Bring It in

Lose your voice

Lose control

Feel the pain

The hurt

The loss

Feel the way I feel

Hold my breath

Take my life

Let me forget

Stay out of my head

Make your voice stop playing

I JUST WANT TO SCREAM

Feel my pain

Feel my hurt

The stabbing into my chest

The knife you stabbed me with

The smile you tricked me with

The kiss that left broken promises

I hate you..

unsaid words

Im so confused right now,

Somedays yes,

somedays no,

I never really know,

I hear some things

i let some go,

i keep them in the back of my mind,

until oneday i explode

Confused is what i am

Confused is what i was

Confused is how i feel,

Things run through my mind

the questions i ask myself,

Let go?

hold back?

stay?

so many things.

i have to say,

so many words left unsaid,

Im not sure what i would do,

walk away,

its what i do

Pretend

smile,

Walk away

be yourself is what they say

how?

when your

judged

critisized

put down,

Hurtful words

are said

thrown around

like nothing

I hear things

let them go

dont let them phase me

people lie

people cheat

So much in my head,

so many things i havent said

so much i need to say.

but i just walk away

Its all gone

I miss you being there

i miss you holding me.

i miss the times we've shared.

but i know your always there for me,

I see you walking in the halls,

you glance my way,

I quickly glance the other way,

Hoping you didn’t see me

The ways you made me laugh

The times you made me cry,

every time you said my name,

you got the look of love in your eyes,

Holding hands walking down the street,

Sitting in the park looking at our feet,

Nothing to do,

nothing to see

Nothing to do but settle with its over

Why does she do it

Why does she do it

Why does it hurt

When its all going good

Why does it scream from the inside

When she tries to keep it quiet

Why does he see it

When she hurts so bad

Why does he help her

When she resists so much

Why does she do this

When she holds it in

Why would she do this

It only hurts her friends

How can she do this

letting it build up inside

When will it stop

Why wont it cease to the end

Why wont she follow the path of right

When will she learn not everything is alright

When will she let them know shes not ok

Why is it she lets these hurt feelings stay

Internal fight

tonight

she worries

she cries

she thinks

she wonders

who was that stranger

why was she alone

why does she hurt

why does she fight

when will it stop

when will it fade

when will it go away

Two halves fighting

Trying to make a whole

One shouts Yes

One shouts No

Pulling her apart

Not letting her go

trying to latch on to her very soul

Trying to make it leave

Wanting it to stop

the pain

the hurt

the tears

ripping her away

from reality

from life

from her everything

Making it leave seems to be impossible

Yelling for help

Shouting

screaming

it follows her to her dreams.

 

 

Control

Control.

Let it go

hold it in

Breathe

Control.

Hit a wall

Scream so loud

Breathe

Control.

Uncontrolable emotions

Cry like mad

Cut yourself

breathe

Control.

Shout

Scream

yell

cry

Breathe.

Control.

Strange place

Look around

Get familiar

Breathe

Control.

loud house

Yelling kids

Fighting parents

Breathe

Control.

Breathe in

Breathe out

In hale

exhale

Breathe.

Roller coaster

She Holds it in,

She lets it get to her.

She has no control.

She doesnt know what to do

She knows she needs you,

She knows your just scared,

Screamin and shoutin

Cryin and yellin,

She wants to know why she let it get this far

to be there,

to want her,

to know you'll be by her side

thats all she wants,

thats all she needs,

why would you leave her in a spot like this.