whispers, inside

It happens everytime
EVERYTIME
everytime you leave.
I feel lost, and I love you, but its so hard through the distance.
I cant reach you,
I get frustrated.
and now
I have nowhere to go because you are not here..
its so hard..fighting is so much easier when your away
its so easy to get frustrated because its hard to explain things
when i dont know if you are listening.
It is so hard to talk to someone and feel comforted,
and then feel guilty because its not you.
I feel bad talking to other guys because you dont know them
and i dont want to upset you, or have you not trust me.
I hate it when you're gone. But I love you for following your dream
<3

I feel like everyone worth talking to is out of my reach
I wish that new mexico was like 5 hours closer..
or even better
I wish I was there.

Recently I have just been
Blah,
and i hate it,
I miss everyone.

I feel alone.
lost.

I write all the time but it gets me nowhere..


I smile all the time, because i know it helps people.
I like helping people.
Even people that dont deserve it.
example. I would push dickhead out of the path of a speeding car.