fix you

so very rarely do I update my blog twice in one day.

But I updated so early that so much happened after.

both good and bad. 

but im not going to share my bad news my last blog was depressing enough, so this one is just informative.

Well first of, I am in love with a boy named Leif Benitez he has stolen my heart and I am almost positive i never ever want it back. <3

Second, I love writing, and today I have gotten so many complements on it. It makes me happy.

Third. Shayne makes me happy too. Hes almost like the older brother I always wanted. haha. I love him too.

Fourth. Today I realized how much i really like helping people. It makes me feel like i have a purpose. Even though i may not like the person, in fact i may HATE them, just kidding I dont hate anyone, not even dickhead. even though i may dislike them i'm still going to help them because everyone deserves kindness.

So i know a lot of people do NOT like me, honestly i dont care. I mean sometimes it makes me sad, but majority of the time I do not care. Shayne and Leif are enough for me <3

Anyways the whole point of me re-blogging today was to share something i wrote. It could be a song. poem, just a writing, its whatever. but i wanted needed to share it with you <3

looking back

 

open up

let me see

let me help

ill set you free

 

I know you're hurting

i see your pain

Sometimes i wish we never started this game

 

No pause

No stop

No fast forward

just play

we are all worn out at the end of the day

 

No friends

No hope

just wait and see

I promise you will regret what you did to me

 

You didn't stop at me

you hurt them too

I wish I would have stopped you

 

You kept going

You liked the rush

you stayed quiet

and you kept us hushed

 

The bruises and scratches

and so much more

we've been through a lot

and you just walked out the door

 

we wanted this over

as soon as it started

its on going

the souls inside of us have parted

 

empty walking

alone and scared

its so hard to get past

that you said you cared

 

You went on like nothing happened

I let you continue

If i would have stopped you

this wouldnt be an issue

 

I assume you imagine what its like

to be friends one moment

and then gone like a flash of light

but this is on you this is your plight

 

You're not the same

you're different

You're strange

We are stronger than you think

We are flipping our page

 

I know its not my fault

and I know there was nothing i could do

but one thing I know

is that this will always come back to haunt you