why cant you.

Saving Grace

you were my sanity

my saving grace

you were my only hope

you gave me my space

its not just me

i know it hurts you too

I'm trying to grow up now,

I'm trying to start over new

you are driving me crazy

and a little insane

you are hurting me a lot

but i know you are not the only one to blame

I sit in my room

alone and scared

pondering the thoughts that shouldn't be there

I cant take much longer

until it happens again

I can feel it building,

and I'm scared this time

that it will be the end.

I feel like i have no control

I feel like I'm so alone

Its so hard to focus on the good things

I just need someone to throw me a bone

this house it built with hate

with coldness and tears

the screaming and yelling

could pierce any ones ears

the music I've received

has helped me escape

its just a matter of time

 before you cover my mouth with tape

I speak my mind

I fight for my life

I try so hard to make you want me

and that always ends up with me holding a knife..

You re supposed to love me

you re supposed to care

I'm your fucking daughter

my emotions, why cant you spare

I want this to be over

I want this to be gone

I want to be able to smile

and know its not because i did something wrong.

you were my sanity

my saving grace

you were my only hope

you gave me my space